The high:

I’d created a Monster.com profile this morning, applied for a contract to write about games/gaming-related content.

About five minutes after I’d submitted the application, the company emailed me for a short phone interview.

FIVE MINUTES. FIVE MINUTES?! FIVE MINUTES!!!!

Yea, I write one helluva resume.

I was elated, nervous, happy, nervous, buzzed, nervous.

What were they going to ask me? What kind of terms should I ask for? How should I sound? Nonchalant? Humble? Foreign?

Omgomgomg.

The low:

The phone interview came and went. Because I had a strict request to want to telecommute, I would not qualify for most of the game-related contracts which required a 40-hour week. The lady said she would keep my resume and see if anything else would come up in the future that would fit me.

In other words, “We’ll call you.” In other words, “I am screwed.”

I am bummed.

I am cognitively dissonant, to use a phrase I learnt from one of my old bosses. On one end, I am determined that the gig HAS to be work-from-home because my kids HAVE to come first. On the other, that gaming contract sounds SO good because *whisper* it’s with Microsoft and it’s really an opportunity of a lifetime for a has-been like me.

Sigh. Sniff.

I need a smoke.