Maybe it’s denial. Maybe it’s strength. I have no idea, actually.

Yesterday went by in a blur. I took my time doing what I was supposed to do, really going through the motions, really being careful, and I hope I was perfect.

The fact is I hate doing anything repetitive. Lokes says it’s natural to hate repetition. I hope so.

Anyway, I went on a game-buying binge yesterday (Pastikan Ori!). You can call it retail therapy except games also let you vent out at aliens and goblins with I-Mod guns and schimitars. My Shadows of Undrentide disc had problems (cldnt install), so I’d have to go change it. Brigitte is asking for more reviews and I told her I’d have to play the games first. She’s giving me more than a week but I don’t think I should stretch it, which is also good for me so I get to play for work more.

In the meantime, I’m playing Elite Force II, which is surprisingly good. Graphics are quite superb and since I did not play Elite Force 1, being in Star Fleet Academy and all was a real kick. I actually tucked Raev in at 8.30pm and I myself fell asleep with her, only to wake up at 12.30am. I fired up EF2 and played til 3am.

My ‘aunt’ has gone. After 11 days. I was gonna visit the gynae today but since it’s gone, I’m hoping ‘she’ will return to her usual schedule.

My ‘real’ aunt is visiting 2 Aug from UK. She and Uncle Francis will be staying with us for a couple of days before going back to BG. Would be fun!

It’ll take a few days before I’m my opinionated self again. Having been stripped down can be a blow to your self-esteem, and I need to pull myself together again before having opinions. Justin tells me I’m too emotional, that I should detach myself from my work. I can’t. My passion drives me. Without it I am unable to write. How can I not feel?

Ah well. It’s the weekend and I’m going to enjoy it with my ever-positive, sunshiney hubby and my silly little girl. You get yours as well.